Loving him tastes so bittersweet.
Yeah, it’s good and I find him very sweet when it comes to efforts and understanding but I feel incomplete whenever I hear some stories from the past of his relationships or his games and careless deeds. I know that was over but I just can’t understand myself. I get jealous and insecure for the things he made before I met him. Am I alright? Or I am having this feeling of doubt?
Today, he made me cry. Oh crap. But I told him that I’m just not in the mood of talking. Then he called me and suddenly we are okay. I admire the way he comforts me. He knows me well and I love that. I’m complicated to be understood by the most so he is one of the blessed guy to have the ability to read my actions.
I don’t understand but he is the cause of my tears and he is also the reason of my laughter and joy. It feels like diamonds are all around when I’m with him. I can see sparkles and dazzling light from everywhere. It never changes and I wonder if he feels the same way too. Wish he can read this but I know he has no idea about this. He has no interest in blogging which makes me feel free to publish such ideas like this. LOL..
He is one of a kind. The pain he made felt good after all.